June 2003 thru November 2006 - Prevent pregnancy (ha! if only we knew what we were in for!) and argue over when to start a family.
November 2006 - Start trying to conceive. FINALLY!
May 9, 2007 - BFP (Big Fat Positive pregnancy test for those not hip to the lingo)
May 20, 2007 - Blood test confirm miscarriage, Ultrasound shows it may be ectopic but is not an issue because there is no longer growth.
July 2007 - Start trying to conceive again.
October 2007 - I take the Professional Engineering Exam and blame our lack of baby luck on the stress of studying for the 8 hour exam.
December 2007 - Find out I passed! I'm officially a real engineer! So much for the stress theory, though. I'm still not pregnant.
January 15, 2008 - Baby's due date comes and goes without another BFP. I get fed up and fast every Sunday for 7 weeks in a row and pray for an answer to my desire for a child.
February 2, 2008 - Angie asks us to adopt her little bean. 7 1/2 weeks gestation. This all goes down the day before the last of my seven Sunday's of fasting.
May 2008 - It's a boy! He's already got a name waiting for him.
September 14, 2008 - River is born!
March 9, 2010 - Adoption is finalized.
March 2010 - Start trying to conceive again. Why do I do this to myself?
April 9, 2011 - Attended my first FSA (or any adoption related) conference. Got to meet my hero Kelsey. She was the keynote speaker and totally
Mother's Day Weekend 2011 - Miscarriage number 2? Number 5? Number 9? Number 9? Not sure. I only found out I was pregnant when I went in to check on an unusally long cycle I was afraid may be an indication of a fibroid tumor or early menopause. And yes, in case you are wondering I am one of those overly paranoid people. I'm pretty sure it is okay because I recognize it and that is the first step to recovery, right?
September 24, 2011 - Big Fat FAINT Positive Pregnancy Test. Start using progesterone cream and taking baby asprin. Panic because I don't have health insurance.
September 26, 2011 - Talk to my midwife on the phone she tells me to come in for first HCG blood test first thing.
September 28, 2011 - Go in for my second HCG blood test in the morning. Get a call back from the nurse in the afternoon. HCG levels look great. They quadroupled from 50 to 200! I start to tell a few family members.
September 29, 2011 - Start spotting. Set up an appointment for another HCG test for the following morning.
October 2, 2011 - No longer need test results to confirm miscarraige. Heavy bleeding has already begun.
October 3, 2011 - On her own accord my midwife's assistant calls to check in on me. Said she was thinking about me all weekend. I tell her the bad news and she listens. She doesn't try to give me any of that silly advice that only manages to hurt more. I don't know if I will ever see a pregnancy from BFP to happy and healthy baby but I do know that in the mean time I am in competant and compassionate medical hands and that is infinately comforting.
October 2011 - Present - No more ttc. Eff that noise. I can't take another loss until I better understand what is wrong with me. Hopefully soon I will have insurance and be able to get the blood tests my midwife recommends.
